Life

Sometimes you hit a curve ball in life.  I have to say this has been the most difficult month I have had in a long time.  I can't tell you how many tears I have shed.  I can't begin to tell you the hurt we have felt.  It has gotten a little easier, but the reminders are constantly there.  It is something that will be continual reminder.  While I don't understand why this has happened I know that God is still God and I have to let him be that instead of trying to make it right on my own, even when it is constantly "thrown into my face".  One of the first songs I thought of for some reason was the words to the updated "Just as I am" which says " I come broken to be mended, I come wounded to be healed, I come desperate to be rescued, I come empty to be filled, I come guilty to be pardoned by the blood of Christ the Lamb and I'm welcomed with open arms praise God, just as I am" What was ironic is that Monday night we sang this at church (special services). Psalm 56:8 talks about God putting our tears in a bottle.  Wow....and then the other song that comes to mind is "when friends betray us, when darkness seems to win we know, the pain reminds us that this is not our home!!"  I'm grateful for the love and support of my family throughout this journey.  I must admit that it has definitely brought Jack and closer together.