Time Slow Down Please

Josh got his drivers license this month.  It has been a scary thing for me and it's been very hard for me to let go.  I have lost all control, but I know I need to let him grow up.  The first night he drove I was a wreck.  He went to a friend's house.  Then, because of the law, he has to be home by 9.  They (Jacob was with him) left at 8:40, but at 9:05, they were not home......FRANTIC!!!  I texted Jacob to find out that they had to turn around because of an accident.  My first thought was "as long as he wasn't part of the accident"!!  He had to make a three point turn and go all the way around.  I am really ok with him driving to and from school (and they kids have enjoyed sleeping in) and to church, but some of the other areas, I still get a little nervous.


I wish so badly I could get him his own car.  Almost everyone I know has gotten their kids cars or their grandparents have gotten them a car.  That isn't going to happen here.  We scrimp and save so much just to send them to Southside.....there is no way we could get him his own car.  He can drive our extra car as long as it is available.  I wish we had a money tree!!


He is also looking for a part time job.  He has gotten a few odd jobs here and there, but he needs something a little more consistent.  He has applied on indeed but maybe he should just go in person and pick up applications and turn them in.  He has actually turned in several applications and has not heard anything.


I also know the longing to find a job.  I only have Chloe for a few more weeks.  I think I will be keeping the boys during the summer, but after I return from Haiti......I don't know what I will do.  I have applied for a couple of jobs only to be turned down.  I knew it would be hard since I haven't had a real job in over 16 years.  The sting of wanting something in particular only to be told you aren't qualified hurts sometimes.  There were two jobs that I really wanted.  I just hope that I will find something.  Sometimes I think I am only good for childcare.  Who knows, maybe I am.


Our Haiti plans are going slowly.  I have gotten or applied for all our passports.  I have finished my shots and the kids are in the process of getting theirs.  The trip keeps getting more and more expensive.  The passports were costly and then insurance won't pay for the typhoid shots (in a pill form) or for malaria pills because it is not necessary for us to go out of the country.  So, after paying for the cost of passports, we have also had malaria pills that run about $80 per person and the typhoid shot is $72!!  Ugh!!  The money is slowly coming in for us.  The next deadline of $400 per person is due May 7th.  and then $420 per person due in July.  Please continue to pray that the money will come in.  Josh and Jake have both contributed money and Jenna has raised $85 in cupcake sales and will be babysitting over the summer.  It will take a miracle for it all to come in!!  I believe it can happen though.  Josh wants to work to help more.