The Ugly Truth

Technology today is a blessing but it can also be a downer.  Social media is full of "look what I did".  It is full of the wow moments!!  There is nothing wrong with that.  I am guilty of it myself.  The downfall is that you don't see the down right ugly days of people.  People who hurt or are disappointed or just can't figure things out.

I am full of that this week.  "The Ugly Truth"......I am a hot mess in need of a loving God.  Things really aren't that bad, but I don't feel like we have it all together like I try to portray. Here is where I see things:

Joshua:  He loves Jesus and wants to go on to college.  Truth is we are clueless.  Does he want to major in youth ministries or does he want to do sports management?  Where does he go?  Pensacola is on the fence about accepting him, not because of character, but because ACT scores are lower than they want.  BJU has accepted him, but he will have to do some pre-work before attending college.  Grades and things like that don't come easy for him at all.  Test scores show that.  He works hard though.  So....here we are almost the start of March and have no clue what the future holds!

Jacob and Jenna: Although they are well accepted by their friends, do not have "best friends".  I rarely see them invited by their school friends to things.  Again, you are bombarded with social media and the fact that a group of friends got together and yet your child is rarely invited.  I worry sometimes.  I guess it probably isn't a thing I should be concerned about, especially when I see them every day at school and watch them interact.

And then there is me.  I struggle deeply with my identity and who I am.  Always struggling thinking I am second best or not good enough in many relationships and scenarios.  I struggle with not measuring up or being looked over for things.  I have to remind myself that I am loved by God and I am a daughter of the king.

Again, nothing bad happening in my life.  Just keeping it real and showing that I like everyone else try to keep my head above water.  I love to post the great moments, but underneath the surface, the "ugly truth" is that I really don't have everything together!!

Sr. Night Basketball

Time please slow down!  I can't believe this week is Valentine's week.  We just finished basketball (although he has one more game for the conference tournament) and we also just had senior night.  It was a bittersweet night.  I can't tell you how much I am going to miss watching him play basketball.  Hard to believe in 3 months he will be graduated and moving to the Wilds for the summer.